Thursday was the big day that My husband and I were anxious to get over with. Needle biopsy and lumpectomy, these big words brought me to tears and deep reflection of my life and my future. I have had so many friends and family praying for me, I’ve never felt so BLESSED and CONTENT with our life, our decisions, our relationship and the people that have chosen to take this journey with me. I love you and thank you all for LOVING my family and I! 

For the word of the Lord holds true and we can trust ALL he does psalms 33.4💜

We walk into the office. I get my paperwork all signed. The nurse calls both my husband I and into the consultation room where a nurse begins to explain the procedure and the risks. She explains what they found and marks an X on the area they will perform the biopsy. She also explained the reasoning for the biopsy. After comparing images taken from the last 6 months, reviewing findings from 2 other technicians opinions and also what she found in their own ultra sounds the lump had grown, was consistent and it was a cause for concern. 

I change into their pretty pink gown and lay down on the table as the tech is telling me to point out the lump for her again. I go to the area that I’ve been checking EVERYDAY for the last 7 months and it’s hard for me to find it. I feel something but it wasn’t that end of a pencil eraser type of  lump that I had been praying over. I asked her if she could look with the ultra sound cause I can’t find it, my hands were shaking so I honestly thought I was just nervous. She’s pressing super hard with the ultra sound wand, going back and forth while thinking out loud and giving me some direction.  “Let me brighten the screen, move your arm up, turn to the side,  what’s going on, ok try and find it again.” She tells me I don’t understand! I did your last scan and I remember you going directly to the lump and pointing it out and finding it right away. There’s nothing there! She then goes to her charts and calls the surgeon. 

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. Phil4.6 💜💜💜

The tech goes on to say “I don’t know what to say, it was there, it was prominent, it’s not there anymore and that’s not a mistake! We can’t do a biopsy if there’s nothing to biopsy.” By this point I’m in shock and in tears. What’s happening? Did they make a mistake? Is the machine  working? Lord did you do this this? 

3 Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance,4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, Rom5.3-4

With tears in his eyes my husband immediately said this is a MIRACLE! All this time we’ve spent praying, all the family and friends we’ve asked for prayer, The lord heard each and every one of us crying out to him🙏🏽

19 Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven.20 For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.” Matt18.19-20

The next day I woke up and checked, there isn’t any sign of a lump. It wasn’t a dream! Lord this isn’t a mistake and you have my full attention. You brought me through this and I have complete trust in your plan for my family and I! 

Every motion and emotion I’ve gone through over the last few months have opened my eyes too a lot of ME. Lord this was your plan and I’ve grown so much from it. I’m so unworthy yet so thankful. I gave you everything I was trying to change or fix and put my trust in you. This is my testimony this is my song! 

1 O LORD, you have searched me and known me! 2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. 3 You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. 4 Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, you know it altogether. Ps139.1-4

Things that used to bother don’t anymore. People who used to bring me to tears don’t anymore. Relationships that I tried so hard to fix were never mine to fix. Everything I had on my plate I let go of it. I mean, I really let go of it. Lord here you go! I can’t do this, show me, teach me, mold me, use me.. I want to be a better me. The lord has strategically filled every gap in my life because he knows what and who I need. Everything good and everything bad has brought me to this point of my life and I can’t be more thankful. I’m in complete awe just thinking about this last year and all the change my family has gone through. This is just the beginning! 

Got my new dancing shoes on and I’m ready for my NEW BEGINNINGS! Thank you Jesus! 

I love my Roadrunner💜